At the moment the really important thing seems to be that you were brought to realize the impossibility (strict sense) of rejecting Christ. Of course He must often seem to us to be playing fast and loose with us. The adult must seem to mislead the child, and the Master the dog. They misread the signs.
Their ignorance and their wishes twist everything. You are so sure you know what the promise promised! And the danger is that when what He means by ‘win’ appears, you will ignore it because it is not what you thought it would be—as He Himself was rejected because He was not like the Messiah the Jews had in mind.
From The Collected Letters of C.S. Lewis, Volume III
Compiled in Yours, Jack
Compiled in Yours, Jack
The Collected Letters of C. S. Lewis, Volume III: Narnia, Cambridge, and Joy 1950-1963. Copyright © 2007 by C. S. Lewis Pte. Ltd. All rights reserved. Used with permission of HarperCollins Publishers. Yours, Jack: Spiritual Direction from C. S. Lewis. Copyright © 2008 by C. S. Lewis Pte. Ltd. All rights reserved. Used with permission of HarperCollins Publishers.
One of the hardest, if not the hardest thing a Christian must do is surrender their will and plans to God. It is the antithesis of what we perceive is our “right” to call our own shots.
We do have that “right”, and so did Adam. However, when our “right to chose” blocks us from God’s will and God’s way, then we may refuse to see it or accept it. Thus, we may desire and choose the life we planned rather than the one God created us to live.
That is the choice Adam made; not living in the Eden God created, but in the world he wanted. That world will never provide us the peace, love, joy and hope that Eden was created for us to enjoy here and now.
Choosing God’s way,
Z gardener
Good Morning Garden 
This comment from a gardener. Thank you, Z.
Re: Eden – however one thinks of Heaven, we are not there yet, and making choices under uncertainty is our lot. It’s fanciful and an abrogation of God’s love, I think, that choice may be prescribed. Jesus’ life illustrates just that. Existence is surely much loved by God, and the capacity to stray and fool ourselves looks to be God’s wager.
With hope,
– D